Hello again
How is one supposed to feel about getting a bad grade on a test? I am a psychology major in college, and I recently got a 68 (out of 100) on a behavioral statistics test that I had studied quite hard for. I am a 24 year old male, and it was difficult for me to hold back the feelings of worthlessness, and self hatred as the teacher was going over the answers today in class. I literally was on the brink of tears over a stupid test! It doesn't seem normal to have a lump form in my throat, and feel horrible about myself for the rest of the day over an almost passing score on an exam. Granted, I wasn't even close to the class average. It seems everyone else is doing fine, and I'm the only one who made a bunch of really stupid mistakes, but still, I don't understand why I have such feelings of complete worthlessness over it. I understand what I need to do to get better, and I'm planning on getting an appointment with a tutor, and working with the teacher to get a better grade on the next test. I would just like to know how I can overcome having such strong emotions over something that, in the long run, isn't that big of a deal. It's kind of embarrassing to walk through the halls of a college feeling like I want to either break down and cry, or put my fist through wall. It's childish, but I really cannot help but feel this way. Any advice would be most appreciated. I don't party, or drink, or do drugs, and I'm very serious about school. Maybe that's my problem?