All,

I have a great friend who tells me (all the time), you get what you think about, whether you want it or not.

How true. Strange how life throws those little coincidences in my way....

As I was finishing my great spinning class yesterday at the local gym...there was my ex-t, leaving through the same door. I saw him and believe that he saw me...but glanced away.

And guess what?

I felt very little. No erratic cardiac stuff (even after spinning). I noticed that he looked kind of perplexed and uncomfortable within his own skin...if I met him on the street, I would steer clear of him.

My reaction? Very little reaction compared to what I'd thought would happen. No rash or huge panic attack -- a pretty nice evening! I did my ritual quietly, worked on my writing, talked to a friend and a great night's sleep!

I won't say I was thrilled to see x-T, but I sidestepped the freakout that I feared would come in the wake of running into him in my small town. I didn't really feel much at all, in fact....and this was before my planned releasing ritual! Wow!

Because it snowed in the morning, he wasn't wearing the "shorts for a younger person"....and that helped. But mostly, I guess I'm getting past the point where I'm renting this douche-master a room in my head.

Free at last! I'm sure that posting here for nearly two years had some little part in that.

Whew, I think I'm moving along, however slowly!