Big Mama.....she wants to...I do want too, but I won't...I'm scared she is gonna freak out on me or something. Rejection vs trigger...catch 22. I would never ever put it to her that way, but that's the short, easy answer.

Open Eyes, yes it makes sense.....except....I'm not pushing her....I have no expectations. If anything....I think I'm pushing her away and I don't want to do that either. I have no problem holding her....laying with her......leaving her alone.....whatever she needs to feel comfortable and safe. She wants to try to maintain her normal routines. I can understand that....I like to feel normal too. You somewhat know her history. You know I can't chance her "running" again. Until I'm sure in my mind that she is going to be ok....I can't do it.

She has mentioned our lack of sex twice in therapy, but she hasn't directly talked to me. I'm kinda thinking that she doesn't know what to say either. I know....we have got to work on our communication skills. The shrink wants to talk to me about this....I don't know if she wants to know my feelings on this or if she has some sort of insight for me. I'm hoping that she will either validate my feelings or tell me that I'm way off base. I want to be sure about things....I've been blindsided enough lately.

Thanks,

Gman