I love my wife to death. I just have issues. First, I don't know how to express my feeling the way I'd like. Second, I have a very low self esteem issue. She is gorgeous and gets hit on constantly. Which doesn't help my already low self esteem. Three, to get back at her, I'd subconceously put her down and say stupid things to upset here. Basically, speak before I think. And every time I hurt her, a part of me dies. Well, this time I've been contemplating suicide. I know it's not the way to go, but I got to change something and I don't know how.

My wife tells me everything. I in turn try to tell her everything, but find it hard to sometimes. So there might be some trust issues on both sides. When things are great, their great. But when things are bad, it's usually because I opened my mouth.

She's been ignoring me for a couple days now and no matter what I say, I get no replies or she doesn't feel like talking on the phone. God, I can't loose her. I'd, I'd ah. Well, that is why the title. Man, do I need help.

I don't want her to hurt anymore. I just can't loose her.