Skki, maybe i could do that. how do u know if they do dbt? is it listed on the health insurance or provider website? idk. do i ask when i call around? A lot of places usually have a 1-3 mo wait if I am a new patient. That means I'd have to find a new pdoc too since this one only works with counselors in his office.

So i saw him last night and we had such a good night hanging out. I felt like i had such w great day, like i was on a hi bc i was so happy. Tonight I got a little paranoid and asked him where he think things are going. I'm more confused than ever. He hates labels on things, ie...gf and bf, but he doesn't want to date anyone else. I also feel like I have to hold back with him for fear of scaring him away. Idk.

Now I'm going on vacation all by myself to house sit and dog sit for my parents when they go on vacation. I could also go with them as they are going to a cabin in the woods...a nice resort actually. Anyhow, I just want to be alone I think. But it's prob not the healthiest. Do I cancel and just go to work instead? That way I can keep my mind off of things. Otherwise I won't see him for another 8 days, at least. My stomach feels like its going to go inside out. I hate myself for even caring and making myself vulnerable by liking him.