Just found out there is a job opening where I used to work.

I'm thinking of applying, but I'm really nervous about it.

It's a newspaper reporter position, and I loved working there. I left because I was in a state of aggitation, wasn't meeting deadlines, and I couldn't keep my mouth shut. I was bouncing off the walls in a small, tight-knit office, and driving my co-workers nuts.

I started out there in 2003 doing an internship for my college degree. They liked me, and when the internship was over I freelanced for them until there was a position for me on staff.

I was on staff for about a year-and-a-half before I quit. That's my usual length of employment.

Then I freelanced and wrote articles for them off and on through 2009.

Since around 2008, I have submitted my resume three times when I heard another reporter had left and they needed to find someone.

Three times.

And each time, the editor didn't say a word about it, didn't respond to my email, didn't ask me to interview, didn't tell me to jump into a lake.

It was humiliating, but I kept sending resumes. Three times.

I wish that, if they truly were not interested, they might have said something to let me know I was wasting my time.

Now there is a job opening again.

I went into my email account and pulled up the last resume that I sent to my former editor. When I read the letter I wrote back then, I thought, "Oh, man. No wonder he didn't bother with interviewing me. I sounded like a mess."

Should I risk humiliation a fourth time by tweaking my resume and sending it once again?