hi valis. im sorry to hear about what you are going through,

try to take everything a day at a time, try not to look at it in a time-line situation. depression only goes away with alot of hard work and determintation. when that determination fades, we have to find out what creates it initially, and try to bring it back. ive said on several posts to other people, the best thing i found that helps is to find something you are creatively in touch with, it could be anyhting, just as long as it gets you thinking and concentrating on something you enjoy doing, instead of thinking and concentrating on depression.

there are often times when i feel like i want to explode, i feel like i am in a room where the walls are closing in and i get upset and worked up. the thing i find that helps is to imagine you pushing the walls back, and to use all your physical and mental strength to stop these "tightening" feeling progressing.

accept these sorts of days. they are all part of the process of depression, and it will not last forever. explain to your therapist about these feelings as they will help you conquer them too.

try taking a holiday, away from your normal everyday surroundings, as our everyday life can seem abit tedious after a while.

i hope you find the solution to your troubles, and if theres anything you need, please feel free to let me know. im here for you, as are many of use here at PC.

take care of yourself and try not to stress too much about your current feelings. they are all completely natural and will fade with time.