No don't stick it. I welcome any and all advice. I just can't seem to get started doing something. It becomes a waste of time for me, I dunno. But I do appreciate the advice Passion Maybe I should just pick some sort of hobby and make myself do it til I like it. My T, don't have one now, tried to lead me to finding 'small happiness' in life...and sad to admit but I ended up lying to her and saying that I liked coloring. She started buying me coloring books and new crayons and I felt too guilty to take it back. Seven years later I still don't have an answer and it kinda haunts me. I dunno.

Thanks to everyone who took the time to read my self pity....depression's a b**** and then it has puppies...