I haven't stopped thinking about it and maybe she said it all wrong, but maybe she has a point? Not a very good one but I can see what she means, it's is like my ex t said, maybe going through the sexual abuse trauma isn't the best idea, and even to a point the stuff with my mother too, and the nurse has talked with me about the current situation and about my daughter and how I feel about it. But then she just gets frustrated with me and tells me I have to stop beating myself up. To be fair my ex t was of a similar opinion and said that I do almost as job of beating myself up as my mother did.
I just don't know what's good for me at the moment all I know is I need to be better for my daughter. She is number 1. The flashbacks are too much at the moment though.

I don't know, maybe I should just talk to her about the here and now problems and wait for things to calm down, get housed, get kaitlyn straightened out so her behaviour improves at school, take the meds and hope that I can stop being a mess so kaitlyn isn't stressed by my stress.
I don't know
I'm rambling. Sorry.