in the morning my eyes open like they forgot to be shut even though they just damn well loved it!

I'm assaulted ...my dangerous thoughts.....

the ones that worn me out the the day before to make me over tired and was it yesterday or 3 days ago....never simple...

nuthin!'....makes me different from anyone else....

I'm alive.....I suck......I love I hate...maybe I aint so bad?

truth is...I have done some bad things.
thought even worse things....I can share affection and I mean it...

but it never lasts long....don't believe I deserve the affection given to me!

I think some bad things quite alot...my biggest challenge is controlling myself!

so much stuff in my world makes me mad and it's bipolar brilliance that sees the other way but try and embrace it!.....too fast!

so freaking broken!!

but I have bad thoughts and I keep having them

I suddenly lost my smile

but it's ok