I have spend a lot of years unaware of my system. It wasn't until I thought I was going insane that I found out that I had a "system'. I was always aware of my thoughts/voices and believed everyone's mind worked that way. I have since met many of my parts and I am grateful for all of them. Even the self harming ones because they are all there for a reason. To save us. To save our sanity and physical life. But some of them live in constant emotional and physical pain with hurtful memories. There are others that are happy to be alive and enjoy their existence. I come to believe that it is not fair to have any one of my alters exist in endless pain. This is what they saved me from. I believe if I can integrate all of us no one will have to live in endless pain. Yes we/I will know the truth, but I am big and strong and smart and it will not overcome me. I don't believe I will lose anyone. They will all just come back home where they belong.