hey, I actually went in and fell back asleep. I forced myself up because I felt guilty staying in bed. Now I am thinking. "what the hell, just stay in bed"...For many years I stayed in bed because of depression and felt guilty. I don't do that anymore, when I am depressed I mindfully get showered and dressed and leave the house as quickly as possible.

Today isn't depression, it's pain. Overwhelming pain. And I am leaving for Montpelier tonight. I need to do laundry and pack, but I can afford to stay in bed other wise. I still feel guilty though.