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Originally Posted by dubblemonkey
baby I just don't know what to say to them
I don't really know how to say I'm not ok
makes me feel like life is just a big pretending thing
I've been horrribly unstuck so many times and I just hide in the corner in the dark and wait for it to go away...I hope really hard enough and it does it's nasty in the meantime I don't know how to say I'm not ok...
all I want to be is ok I miss being ok I hope to be ok again
you are sweet kind....thankyou... 
lv, monkey |
Oh, I get this. I don't like asking for help. I hate it. I'm terrible at it. And I just explode inwardly. Implode, I guess.
Maybe what you need is a battle cry. So that when you're in the corner you can build the power you need to fight back. That's what a battle cry is for, right. It's like making yourself bigger. Like a bear standing up on back legs to go from being this fuzzy furball into this towering, intimidating death monster. And then what does the bear do? He roars!
It's a warning. It says "don't mess with me, I'm stronger than you, fool!" And it's empowering to you.
Just a suggestion.
Also, remember that Shakespear wrote that "all the world is a stage, and all the men and women merely players; they have their exits and entrances, and in his time one man plays many parts." So, life often can feel like it is pretend. But, it's true actually, and it's okay to have to be in the role of the guy who needs help from his T or pdoc. If you need to call, please do.