thank guy for bearing with me, I know I am stubborn.

Thanks dark hart,, that is interesting, and remember reading about something very similar to what you said.But it was when I was a teen, forgot about that.

For someone who very spiritual, I don't believe in any higher power, like dieties, or supreme beings, or gods. So I always feel like I am floundering through this alone. I sometimes look to dieties, but only for symbolism, maybe there is philosophy there that is worth using kinda thing.

Funyy cause my bf who I don not talk to about this stuff, put a show on last night about spirituality, I think it was pure coincidence on his part because he is not spiritual at all, it was just a ted talk show. But it was interesting, talking about our minds being like a duplex, we stay on the bottom floor most of the time, but sometimes we find or create a staircase to take to the second floor. The bottom floor is where we are all involved in self, and are disconnected from others, when we go to the top floor we loose self and are connected to all.

So what happens when you stay on the top floor too long, maybe feeling an empathy overload... I dunno but this whole idea was built around a theory darwin put forth, so I find it hard to dismiss a poppy cock. But it went on to talk about super organisms and stuff, god I was so tired to I am making a mess trying to explain.

Anyways thanks for bearing with me through my weirdness.