Right. What you need WILL NOT be the same thing that someone who has experienced sexual abuse needs. Your T is trying to help you grow. Maybe it's time to stop being mad and sad about that and try to accept her help. [That may sound harsher than I mean it to. You just seem to keep fighting the same battle over and over and your T sounds like she keeps trying to tell you that you are trying to get something from her that you DON'T need and/or that wouldn't even be good for you.]