Please don't judge I am having terrible thoughts and nightmares for some weeks now, it's been getting worse, these thoughts are on the way of ruining my feelings for him. I do not know who to talk to right now, it's weird if I talk to him directly and it's weird if I talk to my friends / family.

I ask myself what if he is? He'll have to tell me, I'll have to ask. but he won't, he would always deny, what if he's ashamed a lot of people won't admit.

I avoid talking and thinking about this, but I can't stop wondering, I can't stop , I want to stop thinking about it. I just need to calm down I know there is way you can tell if a guy is gay, there is no radar, I keep reading, but I even took a quiz to see his likelihood. I read a story from my magazine about a married woman with kids finding out her husband is gay after all those years - she was happy about it and let another man in their relationship.

Has any women thought about this, if so, did you talk to him?