doggiedo - as I said, just self talking, find the roots of the problems, then find ways to think on the positive side, once you can focus on the positive, you can let it go little by little each day, it is not easy....and it takes times....but more importantly, after I joined PC, I really feel warm here and less lonely as I'm not the only one feeling this way. And not completely get out of it, just better, hope it keeps this way