defiently the abondment and rage, i feel so much resentment for all my ex "boyfriends" aka obsessions... the ones who left me, or get away.. ran off i dont want them to just me content and happy, i want to make sure they are constanly reminde dof how much they hurt me, everyonce in a while i have to send a text message to one of them jsut so i know im not forgotton about, i want to get a reactin out of them, anything..and then i feel better, almost as liek as long as they text me back i still have some power over them, or mabye they may consider comming back, not really sure i just know the last thing i want is to feel like one of them has moved on and just went foward with life and forgot about me, it just cant happen and i wont let it.