((Sunset-L)) - I'm sorry you're feeling so sad and unhappy with where you are at this stage in your life. Are you in therapy or receiving any treatment at this time? For now don't do anything drastic and always contact mental health professional is you're suicidal. You can't solve problems when you're feeling this upset, so put everything on hold for now. When you do feel better, take things one at a time and figure out what can be done to change how things are. Here's some help links in case you need them.

http://psychcentral.com/helpme.htm

http://www.metanoia.org/