Thanks for making me laugh, Antimatter. I think I will definitely bring the apology thing up to eventually. It is just one of those things where she always seems to 'out logic' me. Like whatever I say about it will turn out to be unfounded.

About her other patients....usually just, "Most patients don't mind xyz" or "I've had patients who xyz" or any mention of them in relation to having parts of her schedule. I'm still really trying to understand that her having other patients might not mean I matter less.

Idk....i kinda just feel bleh after this. I told T during session that I was trying to push her away and off of a cliff because she had gotten too close. She then said, "Well, you've succeeded [in pushing me away]." Now I feel bad and want her back again. It's like I can push you away but only if you don't realize or acknowledge it (even though, yes, I did confess to it in this instance)