I am happy to see that you are on here reaching out. That is a big step, because I am now 45, have somehow managed to live, most of my years are lost, but finally in 2008 I went for help. I couldn't tell anyone how I felt as a teen, young adult, and my life would be different if I would have taken some positive steps toward healing. I was embarrassed, my parents were embarrassed, and the shame I felt was devastating. It kept me quite, up until now. But even so...this is such a difficult step to play nice with others, especially when I am full of anger, despair, confusion, and all the other stuff locked inside. If my therapist knew I was on a support group page he would be estatic! I hope I said something of encouragement to you...