Thank you James.... honestly.. and honesty..

Makes a lot of sense, when you open up... except one thing.

And that is this... do you need to be locked up away from the world forever ? You got ideas, you got feelings, you got "want to damage the world", but we don't lock people up and throw away the key for thoughts, or we would ALL be in one giant cell.

What is it that stops you from doing what you might think about ? There is something stopping you, or you would have done it.. that thing, ya it's a pretty important thing too I think.

I might be gentle James, but I am not so gentle inside. And I did not used to be gentle at all. But I am trying to find a more comfortable way to be here, so I have more room to breath. So I can feel something different, I just got so sick of being in the dark all the time, it's not so mysterious this dark, it's not. After you spend a lifetime there, there just isn't that much to explore there.. so I set my sights on something else, I like a mystery..and there is so much more to experience than the darkness... I am an explorer and there isn't anything left to explore in the sadness, the hurt, the pain, suffering.. this had been explored to death.. I wanted something new.

I don't know if that makes any sense to you James, but your situation makes me think about it... and sometimes we just have to free ourselves from this.. turn our back and go a different way, cause it just isn't that mysterious.