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Hello, I'm Kayla and I'm 16. I would post in the introductions section of the board but I figured I'd get more attention on the post here.
There are a lot of issues I need to discuss, but this one is the most major, so I wanted to tackle this first. It may be a little long, but I'd more than appreciate it if it was all read! I'll try to make it easy to read.
1.)I just have crippling,crippling boredom all the time, everyday. It's nearly impossible for me to be entertained, and when I finally do find something appealing I either lose interest quickly or just can't focus my attention on it. Everyone I know my age is entertained VERY easily, but nothing ever excites me. I just feel like the part of my brain that's responsible for entertainment is missing. Simple suggestions like "Go play a game" or "Go out and make some friends" is useless.
Nothing, and I mean nothing, satisfies me. Once in a blue moon, I'll just wake up in the morning in an good mood where I can seem to be entertained like a normal person, and boy does it feel great. But it almost never happens and when it does it fades rather quickly
Some days will be average (I'll be bored, but usually listening to music or blogging will keep me busy, though not thoroughly entertained)
and some will be barren(Impossible to do anything. Literally too bored to eat,drink,or even sleep.)
2.)Everything is hopeless. I have no aspirations or interests. The one thing that keeps me going is my desire to live in NYC, but sometimes that doesn't even seem exciting. Sometimes I think to myself if there was anything, ANYTHING, I would wish to have or be doing right now what would it be? And I can't think of anything. There's nothing I wish to do or see, at least which is realistic (that one unrealistic dream being to meet Paul McCartney). Everything just seems like a stretch of bland nothingness.
3.)I often have no focus. This isn't something I had when I was in elementary school. I thought I had A.D.D, but apparently the symptoms of that are supposed to have been evident in childhood.
I don't really remember when all this started, it's just kind of a thing that just is
Any help here or input would be appreciated...
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