The thing is that this really isn't normal for her, so that in and of itself might have contributed to my frustration. In two years, she's never cancelled last minute for illness (or for being sick at all). She takes one, maybe two vacations in the summer and then holidays like Thanksgiving and Christmas. But ever since I've been back from my trip, it's at least one cancellation a month and a consistent juggling of my time (the time she can see me). This recent cancellation just came at a bad time (yet a convenient one for my 'she doesn't care about me' alter ego).