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Originally Posted by Anika.
I'll always adore you Blue. Sometimes I think it's so weird, you know. In real life, **** I have so many problems with pedators, it's not funny. I look like this samll tiny thing, innocent, I give off a vibe unintentionally with my body language. It's telling them that I am vulnerable, and weak, I won't fight, I am helpless.
And yet I am not any of those things at all times. I am capable of a lot of not so nice things. That is exactly why I have been watching videos of power poses and stuff, I am so confusing in what I put out to others. It's just a bit messy. That is why I have had so many problems with older men creepin around. And it's creepy. That one guy from my out patient therapy... he knew all this because we talked about it in group, way to put myself out there as a target. ok I am sooo off topic.
I figured out how to not use that manic rage for the bad, but I didn't figure out how to do the above.
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bipolar rage is nothing compared to the creepy old man! i've been molested by one and would love to sword smack that mother ****er, i'm sure he's dead by now, it was a very long time ago. and what is it makes them think they can stare at us? out with my daughter today, got some guys staring at me, gave them some stink eye and ok whatever. but if men stare at my daughter, this makes me want to kill them on site. i'm so glad she's an earthy girl and has a sweet quiet boyfriend with adorable upside down cross tattoos on his arms, lol. he takes good care of her, but i can't get into their black metal music. at any rate, that is worse than wrong, joining a group therapy and having that happen to you Anika, horrible wrong i'm sorry you went through that.