they do have free counseling..the only problem is the counselors are all my teachers..I know it may seem strange that I dont want to talk to them about things..its just I like having a complete disconnect between a therapist and the rest of my life...the fact that I would be confiding in my teachers about really personal things doesnt agree with me for some reason..I dont know why this is..I just feel that way...I suppose if I was in a serious crisis I would...but to have someone to talk to regularly that is educated on whats going on in my brain and doesnt have any connections to the rest of my world seems more refreshing for me...thank you for the prayers and I appreciate the feedback.