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I'm a recovering alcoholic, and also suffer from depression and I can tell you that drinking is only making your depression WORSE. Alcohol is a depressant. So you're just going to wallow in your self-pity when you drink. Believe me, I know all about that. We get disgustingly sorry for ourselves when we're drinking/drunk. All we do is think about OURSELVES when we drink. We never think of anyone else. It's all about US. We don't care about anybody. Only about US and how we're going to get the next drink. We are HORRIBLE to live with.
That's probably why your wife left. Because she's been down this road too many times. Right? Are you a MEAN drunk or a HAPPY drunk? Chances are you're a mean drunk and she doesn't want to put the kids thru this anymore. I don't blame her cause the kids cannot be exposed to this kind of environment -- she's got to protect them. If they grow up like this, chances are one or all of them will turn out just like YOU. Am I being HARSH?? YES I AM. Because everyone was harsh with me and that's what got me sober!!! No one sugar=coated it for me. No one patted me on the back and said "There, There, it will be okay." Because it WON'T be okay unless you quit drinkiing!!!
Pour the booze out, and call someone from AA --- tell them you need help. It's too late for a meetiing right now so you can't go to one. But someone cal talk to you on the phone. Call the AA number in your phone book -- call the LOCAL number and talk to someone. DO IT NOW but after your POUR OUT THE BOOZE.
You've got to get sober before you end up like my son -- he had TOTAL LIVER FAILURE. He's home now after coming within hours of dying. His liver is shot -- if he drinks again, he'll die. His liver is only working at about 30%. I dont' know how long he will live. Do you want to end up like this? My son is 42.
DON'T DIE PLEASE. DON'T LEAVE YOUR KIDS FATHERLESS. Hugs, Lee
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The truth shall set you free but first it will make you miserable..........................................Garfield
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