I don't want therapy. Sure, it can be intoxicating to go on about myself, but it can also turn into an addiction of attention.

Also, if the therapist gives a lot of what I see as false information, lacks information they should have or say things that minimizes my issues.. or the worst... projects things on me like I feel things I don't... I don't tolerate it well. I go home and I feel like crap, like I'm about to implode. Disappear.

I had a good crisis counselor but he was a minister (long ago), and he saw things from a sort of human perspective. That helped a lot. Also he was quite humble. I've never met a therapist like that.

Three main reasons I don't do therapy... I can't take the bad with the good... I can't just tolerate someone happened to say a good thing and then a false thing, that makes me confused that the good thing might also be false??? Therapy makes me feel like I'm owned. Like do this. When I fight independently it gives me a sense of strength... like I'm an individual, like I'm autonomic, not something needing to be looked after. Also I have been mentally and verbally abused in therapy when I was younger. To a quite bad degree. When something vaguely reminds me on that, I feel like breaking down.

I can even start steaming over things said years ago. Because there were so many things said. Had severe sleep issues. Counselors advice... go to bed and sleep at 11 and wake up at 7 and you'll see how easy it is. GgrRrrRrRrrrrrrrrr.