Sigh.

Thank you..

I want to get better. I do. For me. I know that I will never get better mentally if I don't resolve my issues with food and weight. Yet, I can't seem to let it go. I can't let go of the idea that being thin will somehow make life better... Or that food isn't the solution to pain. That neither food or weight is a reason to get up in the morning. Or a reason to miss out on life. I know it logically. But I still can't let go.

I want to. I need to.