So T called, and left a message to call. T got an e-mail that I haven't been to the fitness class in three weeks. I really, really got freaked out that she called. T has never called. I did not want to have to explain my reasoning to her. So, I waited to leave her a message to know she wouldn't be there. Well her voice mail doesn't answer after 5 pm on Friday. So now I have to wait until Monday and risk her answering.

I curled up in bed crying because I was so freaked out. My husband decided this was the best time to express that he feels he's losing me and I look at him as a friend. So I try to apologize to him and I freak him out because "It was creepy". Hind sight it was but less creepy then my original idea.

I don't want to talk to T about what's going on. I don't want her to answer Monday. What if she wants me to come in? I'm still very freaked out that she called. I only expect T to call in an emergency. Why would not going to fitness class be an emergency? T has never called in over a year of therapy. I've only called once and she wanted me to go to the crisis center. Can I make a boundary that T only calls in emergency? Why would T feel this is an emergency? Do T's only call in emergencies? She doesn't even cancel her own appointments.

Help!! I'm scared that she called. Do T's call for smaller reasons too? Can / Should I just wait until my appointment on the 15th to acknowledge her call? Do I tell T how much panic I had/have because t called?