I feel like I'm losing my mind. Thoughts are going so fast I can't seem to hold onto one long enough to make sense of it.
Meds keep getting changed and I seem to just keep spiraling upward.
Euphoria is being replaced by irritation.
I can't sit still, but I can't focus enough to actually do anything.
I can't figure out if I'm still hallucinating or if it is all in my head. Shadows of hallucinations I once had...
Can't find a point in the meds, they seem to be making things worse, not better.
I feel like I'm losing touch. I look but I don't see. I touch but I'm not sure I really feel. I think but I'm not sure I understand.
I'm not spiraling down, which I'm grateful for, but I'm spiraling up.
Seroquel definitely makes me sleep, at least 8 hours, usually more, so I can't even count on crashing because of exhaustion. My upward spiral is fueled from all angles.
I'm not sure I can see the ground. How am I supposed to land?
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"Fairy tales are more than true; not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten" - G.K. Chesterton
Dx-
Bipolar Disorder I
PTSD
OCD
Meds-
I am currently Med Free
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