Thread: Losing It
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Old Oct 06, 2012, 06:52 AM
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I feel like I'm losing my mind. Thoughts are going so fast I can't seem to hold onto one long enough to make sense of it.

Meds keep getting changed and I seem to just keep spiraling upward.

Euphoria is being replaced by irritation.

I can't sit still, but I can't focus enough to actually do anything.

I can't figure out if I'm still hallucinating or if it is all in my head. Shadows of hallucinations I once had...

Can't find a point in the meds, they seem to be making things worse, not better.

I feel like I'm losing touch. I look but I don't see. I touch but I'm not sure I really feel. I think but I'm not sure I understand.

I'm not spiraling down, which I'm grateful for, but I'm spiraling up.

Seroquel definitely makes me sleep, at least 8 hours, usually more, so I can't even count on crashing because of exhaustion. My upward spiral is fueled from all angles.

I'm not sure I can see the ground. How am I supposed to land?
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Dx-
Bipolar Disorder I
PTSD
OCD

Meds-
I am currently Med Free

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