Your writing is very powerful. Your words really evoke the feeling of what is it like to go from calm to powerless, scared and in pain. Its a difficult thing to explain when people say "why didnt you just stop it or get away", but they dont understand whats its like to be in that situation. I think it would help your boyfriend to understand whats its like to go through it. I have sent my friend so of the stuff Ive wrote about abuse and it helped her to understand but it also helped me too.