DazedandConfused..
I used to be in a relationship with a man who treated me like this..I..was your wife..and I left..BUT..the difference between the man that I was with and you is that you seem to love your wife..and this man..did not love me..my point is, don't let your wife get away..and the way that you do this..is not by continuing the things that you are doing or ending your life so that she is better off..because she won't be..she will just live with the guilt that she was the reason that you ended your life..is that what you want? To keep your wife..you must learn to change your behavoir..you must learn to love YOURSELF..and then you can let your wife love you! You are so insecure right now..that you cant see that even though another man is hitting on your wife..she still is coming home with and to YOU every night! Women love men to get jeolous every once in awhile..but they love a strong secure man much more! IF you love your wife, like you say you do, and IF you want to keep her, as you say you do, then you need to seek help for your behavoir before you lose her. Because if your wife is strong and determined..she won't stand for this and honestly..not to be rude..I wouldn't blame her. You deserve better..she deserves better..and you both can HAVE better if you want it..so take it and go get it!! Make your lives better for the both of you..and start by talking with your wife..then..decide TOGETHER what you need to do from there..if it is counseling..so be it..just do it..and do it now! Good luck!