I am almost decided about the Christmas vacation so I probably will go regardless. I do not have to stay with him - I have my bff and favorite former teacher over there. I have written to them; the former teacher replied that she would be delighted to see me. Waiting now for bff to reply. I do not know what else to do - staying home will be boring and traveling solo is not my cup of tea plus I do not have that kind of money to spend. So I think I will go. I absolutely detest transatlantic travel and I have a hard time with jetlag, but it is the only option I see for myself. So I hope bff gets excited about my plans. Bff has two kids, another close gf has twins, former teacher has a little granddaughter - I will enjoy shopping hanna andersson for gifts...