I am spirit in a human body, and I have bipolar.

I know the feeling Anika is saying, "oops close the curtain", "wasn't supposed to see that".

My 16 yr old son has bp worse than I do, makes me question if I even really have it. But anyway, he said he thinks bp is human evolution gone way wrong. I think he might be right. I think also that maybe it's evolution, period. Sometimes it presents as illness, and we feel horrible and ill. Sometimes we're seeing past that curtain that we don't want to see, weren't meant to see, weren't ready to see. If we were raised in communities with a Shaman it would probably be a different story.

I'm not saying I think bp is anything "new". Actually there is a book I'm reading called Women of the Way, it's a historical account about the women who followed Buddha/Siddhartha when he was alive, and many of them became bodhisattvas (I feel similar women followed and were close to Jesus). But in this book, many of these women, choosing to leave their homes and families sound like possible bipolar symptoms to me. They are the ones considered willful, difficult, won't conform, depressed, hyper and run off to follow Buddha. But they become respected, reaching spiritual enlightenment.

Just some ideas, I hope I don't upset anyone of different beliefs. I'm baptized Catholic, but always so fascinated with religions and spirituality. My parents were very encouraging of me finding my own path, which I'm grateful for. I have some Native American blood running through my dna that is undeniable, so much of that rings true with me. I find things to learn from every religion I have looked at.

But for me, "I am", is a very sacred spiritual meaning. I'm sure at times I will use the terms interchangeably, I'm bipolar and I have bipolar, and it honestly doesn't bother me how each person wants to say it, or how I say it. But when I really spend some time thinking about it, I go with I have bipolar, because the full essence of me is so much bigger than the bp.