Thank you all so much for your responses. I haven't really progressed at all.

Right now I'm working to save money, so that I can buy take some tests for professional schools. Unfortunately, that in and of itself is pretty depressing.

I am really trying to feel confident in myself to leave this situation, but it seems mostly to no avail. I find myself questioning my reasons for ever wanting to get out of this relationship at times.

I do not see him really at all. I plan on visiting him in December, as he is in law school and cannot visit me because we live almost 12 hours apart. My life has become so sad, and I spend most of my time being depressed and feeling sorry for myself.

I guess this is the reality of life. I am so sad though. I wish I had some friends and that I could afford therapy. I really want friends again.