I am not sure this is where I need to post this, if not you can move it.
My sister and I were raised by a single mother that had some issues. I will go into those later. This post is about the years of my childhood that I don't remember. Not even a small glimmer of a memory. The earliest memory I have is when I am between 2 and 3 years of age. I am sitting on a couch and my sister is in a playpen, we are both crying. My mother was saying she would be back in a minute to pick us up. We didn't know the lady who was to watch us, she was a "new" babysitter.I don't remember anything elses after that until I am 7 years old. Then the memories are patchy for a few years until I am 9 years old. After the age of 9, I can remember everything clearly.
The issues with my mother were "normal" to me as a kid, but now that I am older, would really like to know what she was thinking and doing. She passed away when I was 13. Been a very long time ago.
She would wake us up in the middle of the night and tell us we were moving, and we would get into the already packed car. She would drive until she ran out of gas. That is where we would live until she decided to move again. could be 6 months or 2 years. She never would tell our father where we were living, no address or phone number until a few days before she would pack us up again. This is something dad and I have put together on info he has and info I have.
Dad says when they were together, she would all of a sudden come home in different clothes, different hairstyle, different style of make up, acting different, and even talking different. She would threaten him, pull a gun on him, and then take off and leave us for days at a time with no word. When she would come home, she would be back to "normal", clothes, hair, make up, voice, everything would be as if nothing had ever happened.
I remember as a kid, having an aunt named Linda that looked like my mom. Except she dresseed different and talked different. When aunt Linda would show up, Mom would be gone for a few days. When Mom came home, aunt would leave. When my Mom got sick with cancer, we didn't see Aunt Linda at all. I was sure she would be at the funeral. I asked other aunt about her. She told me that I did not have an Aunt Linda. We determined that Mom must have had a split personality. I talked to Dad when I got older and he confirmed that Mom had been diagnosed as Multiple Personality when I was real young.
Am wondering if her "leaving us" with Aunt Linda and strangers might have caused my memories to be buried. How do I go about retrieving lost memories?