I've gotten a lot out of being with a PACT team. But sometimes all the monitoring makes me feel like I'm always thought of as disabled first, rather than a person whose disability is just one part of my life...I feel like they sometimes focus on my illness, and making sure I don't 'slip up'...It's like sometimes they seem to be 'waiting for the other shoe to drop' even when I'm doing well and there are good things in my life...It feels to me sometimes like being in a humongous 'playpen' rather than being an independent, functioning human being. Sometimes it makes me feel like my life is not mine....like I'm not really running it.