Flipper, it will be okay. That is one of the only nice things about this disorder. Once you hit the bottom, you have the jump up to look forward to. Unipolar depression, there is not real end in sight. At least with bp the sucky parts go both ways. Mania or hypomania may not be the best answer, but at least they're better than no answer, if you ask me. Even though I seem to be stuck with mania, I know that the crash will come eventually. Things will change, just hold on to that thought to get through. I really hope you are starting to feel better. You're in my thoughts. And here, have some hugs