I don't think life has a meaning but its up to us to try and appropriate one. We all find it in different things and it tends to be a deeply personal issue. Someone i once spoke too talked about accepting that they had no more meaning than the leaves on the trees or the grass on the floor - but they understood they were just as important in the universe as everything around them. Perhaps your 'meaning' is to be part of that universe and allow whatever plan it has for you? Im sorry if ive not been helpful, this is a rather complex subject but im sure you will get some interesting responses