Hi hope hubris. I don't have any further advice other than what the others have suggested. I can't imagine the pain that you are going through, so I can only hope and pray for you. I'm sure that if you go to AA they can have someone be with you while you go through withdrawal. It's worth a try. You are worth the effort. Your kids are worth the effort. Remember that. Take care of yourself, and let us know how you get on.