I empathize with you nightsky... I have fibromyalgia, SAD and chronic depression along with BPD. Having the physical health issues makes life and especially school and work hell for me at times. I already have missed at least 7-8 days of school due to chronic fatigue and severe fibro + panic attacks and I'm feeling guilty, embarrassed and misunderstood just like you. So you are not alone. Every Sept-Oct my condition worsens due to my depression worsening from SAD. The fibro and mental/emotional health seem to all be connected. Worse moods means worse potential fibro.

But the thing is, you are not in control of these illnesses... and you deserve to get some slack for what you have. In my case I got doctor's notes and excuses and doctors communicating with my school to say I am absent sometimes from my fibro and must be taken out of some rigid standards from it. As others commented here, you are deserving of something like an IEP to accommodate you for these illnesses. You aren't being lazy. You aren't not trying. You are ill, and illness is NOT equated with laziness or slacking off in my book. So please have a higher opinion of yourself, try not to feel as guilty - be more assertive and try to get the standards you deserve in school, since everyone with disabilities big and small deserve an education!!

Good luck. Please talk to me anytime about this if you feel like it.