Aw Clinte, it does sound like depression + mania. Like a mixed episode. I get so confused trying to figure out what mood I am in, unless it's something to the extreme then it's obvious. Sounds like you have a lot pent up that you want your family to know. You want to be heard. But you may not be able to make them be something they're not, some people are just not comfortable talking about feelings. Do you know what it is that you want them to hear? What sort of things could they be doing that would help you feel more supported? We could try to help you come up with ways to talk to them. I so hope you've gotten rid of the razor, and that you are safe.