Honestly, I am not sure how to answer that question, because it’s never really occurred to me like that before. I don’t really think of whether or not I am interested or not interested, rather I have always thought about their characteristics, if they are compatible with me, and how nice they are, with an emphasis more on objectivity than feelings I suppose. I’ve always thought of relationships as like buying a car - you learn about its features and make an estimate if it will work for you. Might sound awful for some but I am told (by my T) that I am not well acquainted with my inner feelings, therefore any question concerning how I feel is a difficult and seemingly bizarre question to me. I don’t know - I am messed up .

She seemed to mention her BF only in the context of what she was doing for Thanksgiving, since she was the one that asked me that question first, and after I responded she kind of took over the conversation from there.

Two things to respond to your rant…

1.) “I think as a woman if I ever mention a boyfriend (real or otherwise)…,” real or otherwise? Huh? Otherwise?

2.) I don’t know anything about 9 year old boys hitting 9 year old girls out of ‘sort of’ repressed affection.

3.) I don’t normally smell others and I mostly lost my sense of smell as a child from an over-the-counter drug addiction…thought I should add this lol.