DAMN IT!! I had a really good reply type up and then my cat jumped on the keyboard and wiped it out. I hate this frickin' thing with a forward and back button built in to it, because that's where she always lands.

Anyway, I said

My mom always changes the subject when I say my depression is kicking my butt. She has depression and should be on medication, but she doesn't think she should be, even when she gets better when on something.

My ex used to say "act happy and you'll be happy." "Smile, and you'll be happy." Act on the outside how you want to feel on the inside." That one I followed. I got divorced. Then I got to tell him "act happy and you'll be happy" when he told me he was depressed and would I please come back.

The ignore button has become my friend too. There are some threads that I'll enter and all I'll see is a long string of *you are ignoring this member* because a couple of them keep going back and forth with each other. I actually had a dream last night where it showed how many people have you on ignore on your profile page. Not actually who has you on ignore, just the number. Mine said five. Wonder how accurate that is?

I wish more people would use the ignore button. It gets really old to see the same pairs of people sniping back and forth, and neither one just saying "OK, I'm done, this obviously isn't working" instead of continually trying to get the last word in. But maybe they actually like that kind of interaction. Sometimes I'll unignore someone to see if anything has changed, only to see that they're replying the same way to other people as they used to reply to me. Back on ignore they go. And I've learned somewhat to not even get involved in some arguments. Not all, but some. I'm not perfect either.

Luckily everything is on the upswing, and I don't feel the need to be here so much at the moment. Meds seem to finally be the proper type and dose. Work is going well. Relationships are good. I don't need PC as a soft landing place at the moment. I have to say, it's not as soft as it used to be anyway, at least not on the surface. Too much arguing over little stuff so that not too many people can concentrate on actually supporting anyone. Yesterday I managed to stay away the entire time I was working, and I was finished by 5:45. (Not too shabby considering I got a late start).

So that's my two cents.