Hi,
I'm really sorry things are in bad right now. I agree with you about not needing to have someone ard that requires everyone else working on eggshells. I know what it's like to have no support system. I'm in a state with no family and I have a 6 yr old.
I encourage you to contact your local NAMI (
www.nami.org) and your local department of mental health. Consider participanting in support groups and workshops. WRAP by Mary Ellan Copeland (wellness recovery action plan) would be a good program for you.