Today I have that horrible feeling in my stomach.
Today I am really thinking about si just so that feeling will go away.
This morning I thought of driving my car into a lamp post.
I have work now so at least I will not be alone to harm.
Today is going to be hard. Today I will have to be strong. Maybe I'll just cry today I hope that's all I will allow myself to do.
Have to be strong I'm out side work. Wipe the tears away. Don't let people see I'm fading into that place again.