I had known something was wrong for several years before I went to doctor for help. I have heard voices for as long as I have memories. I have had depression since I was 13, I attempted suicide at 14, thought real hard about it at 17. Had a baby at 18 and had a breakdown at 19. I cried every day for a solid year. I didn't know what to do. I was in a physically abusive marriage, with a young child, hearing voices, not eating, losing weight real bad, and being told if I left my husband I would go to hell. When I was 20, I finally went to the doctor and he diagnosed me as bipolar.