thank you all. I am still in therapy (weekly) and starting to attend a depression group this tuesday. I'm trying, but it's hard to get out of the fog of depression and alcoholism when there is nothing to motivate you. this is probably stating the obvious, but even if i get sober, my life is still seriously damaged, and even if the best outcome is achieved, it still is really bad. how do we find motivation in this senseless and punitive world?