Thanks for the kind words, Leed and ndgirl. I really do not like having this countdown to the day Sunny dies. It's such a crappy thing to have to look forward to at the end of this week. I honestly do not know how I'm going to cope with her death. I have opted to be with her when they euthanize her which my mom adamantly claims is a mistake on my part, because she thinks it will make me even more upset than I would be just knowing she is gone. But Sunny is my friend, she's always been there for me since I was in first grade, so the least I can do is be there for her when she needs someone the most.

I was talking to my boyfriend and said that I am pretty sure I will have a panic attack/depressive episode after she dies. He said that I am setting myself up for failure if I think that way. I guess that's true, but I don't know how else I am supposed to set myself up. I don't know how else I CAN set myself up; one of my lifelong friends is dying. What good can possibly come of this? I have a seven year old little brother and this will be one of his first experiences with death and I remember when my cat, Church, died when I was in third grade, one year older than him. It literally changed me for the rest of my life. Knowing that he is going to have to go through something similar makes me very upset too. I don't know how to be strong for him, I don't know if I can.

I know it might seem like I am overreacting because Sunny is "just a cat" but to me, she is more than a cat. She is one of my best friends. She has loved me unconditionally and I have done the same for her. That's more than most humans can love, and now she's dying. I don't know what to do.